Bugs in my mind

It was today when i came to know how haunting is the siren of ambulance is. Just don want to elborate it. My friends father is sick and i cant do anything about it. I have just slept for 4 hrs today. Again same question takes u turn and comes back to me.. Why god doesnt treat everyone equally? Plus my friends have become mere colleagues these days. This all feels too sick for a person like me.. Who is fond of his friends.. Maybe god is indicating me.. these new relationships are temporary. But i wont let em go like this. Lets see what happens and if it turns in my favour then i will surely thank you God:)