The big things n then small nothings.

Recently started following _robin_sharma on twitter. He tweeted a good line. "The way you do the little things is the way you'll do the big things. Everything matters." quite impressive and thoughtful. I am going to apply it. Its the base of all the actions. Whatever you do give your best shot. The blend of different thing that runs in our mind everytime is the enemy. We have to shoot everything from point blank. Vacate all other things from your mind when doing any task. It seems like i am goin off multitasking but thats what i am goin to do now. Well regarding my rona-dhona for my last friendship or my first brush with a girl is over now but the thought still irks me that it would have been better if she was still here. Oh my god.. This is what called aftereffects. I am ending this now. I am amazed. Bye.
Signing off.
Harsh jha.

2 days long bliss

Hey all. Here i am super recharged. I am on a 3 day off from work. Attending a wedding n it has been a wonderful time yet. Right now i am able to find solace amidst of all wedding chaos. Met a good friend after long time. Befriended with 2 children here. A child's affection for you is the purest thing you can earn they dont need any favour or anything. Children's purity always inspires me. Listening to Ambar by raghu dixit. I still feel sometimes that girl that has just gone from my workplace team, if she would have stayed for some more time i would have hit the record for best friendship in limited time :) Well jokes apart it was going on the right track. Coming sunday is my CAT exam. Haven't prepared a dime for it yet. Well signing off.
Harsh jha.
You ppl have gr8 time. C ya.

Bugs in my mind

It was today when i came to know how haunting is the siren of ambulance is. Just don want to elborate it. My friends father is sick and i cant do anything about it. I have just slept for 4 hrs today. Again same question takes u turn and comes back to me.. Why god doesnt treat everyone equally? Plus my friends have become mere colleagues these days. This all feels too sick for a person like me.. Who is fond of his friends.. Maybe god is indicating me.. these new relationships are temporary. But i wont let em go like this. Lets see what happens and if it turns in my favour then i will surely thank you God:)

STRIP DOWN

hi all.. these days i am thinking of stripping down. dont run your mind.. i am talking about stripping down from all the social ecstasies..
nope.. i am not preparing to become a saint..
just want to depend on 2 things: me and surroundings.
I have become dependent on lot of things.. gadgets have become my weakness as well as people..
what i think is that: RELATIONSHIPS ARE THE HEAVIEST AND MOST IMPORTANT ASSESTS OF OUR LIVES.. ITS GUD HAVE TO ur well wishers and friends around
but sometimes we expect more from ppl we want to be attached. This is the truth so to debug all these expectations i have thought of this strip down. strip down from people around you who don't mean much to you... tr to cut the crap.. strip down from the people who don't care for you as much as you do for them. let everyone know they are special if you are caring for them. try to use less things, objects.. limit your usage of different things..
Get to know your real self.. try to meet the real you.. clear all clutters.
Give the heavens above more than a passing glance. I am doing all this because i think i have lost myself in the crowd.. need to know my strengths back.

signing off.
Harsh jha

litmus test

here i am .. in my job place.. thinking what is really there in any relationshio thats keeps it going on or sometimes it loses the shine over the time..
So.. its the emotional investment that one has to make. but it is not vice-versa. I mean of you are putting a lot in it doesnt guarantee you will get a lot in return.
thats because- No two people think same thing at the same time.
Its as simple.. if you are As old saying.. its a litmus test if you are pure in the relation you will let it go..if its true it will come back to you..
but i say what the heck man… you cant let anoyone go out of ur life.. i mean anyone. its not about love only, its ur friens or new aquintances.. But it sure is hard to do. from now on i will be very particular about whom i include in my circle of trust.. out of sight is not out of mind here.

Thick and thin

It is 6.00 in morning and what a night it was. I was getting slight indications of viral infection and at around 11 i was helpless. My body was aching like anything. My head was under magnetic force of god knows how many tesla's plus heavy call flow was on the floor and i logged in for 6 hrs, this is my max login time till date. I never thought that it will come in this type of situation. I have worked first time under such conditions. Hell of a feeling. Had a crocin at midnight will pop in one more after reaching my room. I got a new name and it is "doctor virus", i am the joker of the team now.. I got back to back 3 calls for antivirus installation and everyone around said they crave for such calls.. I was thinking was it my luck or curse upon me. Yes now i am a dedicated employee who works under any conditions.. I am an asset to the company now. My condition was correctly matching with the song " bring me to life" by evanascence. So heavy work flow in coming days.. I am happy my friends are also on the floor now. A little of hi's and hello's are like sweet nothings which refresh you when a friend is with you.
Its time to rest this case.
Objection overruled.

Takhliya..

Yesterday was off.. Enjoyed it to the last dreg. Met with a school friend now she's the girl of my best friend. It was a weird conversation with her. Rest, watched movie the departed at my friend sue's place. I must say it is hell of a movie. Leonardo is a bloody good actor. Had a chat with mataji & pitaji, dont know why but after talking home i felt that me any my actions hold values for some people and i wont let them down . I tried hard to sleep at 4 in the morning but couldn't make it. It took me 2 hrs to get to sleep. Here i am sitting in cafeteria of the company i work for and and getting bored like anything. Still more than 1 hr to go. The logic for the name of the post is that i want to say "takhliya" to all the things i dont want in my life right now. Feeling like i can control the progressions these days.. Learnt this takhliya term from Movie jodha-akbar.
Signing off.
Harsh jha.

Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance.

Right now i am sitting in the porch of the flat i have rented.. and i am watching the night sky. aww, patches of clouds with a layer of stars above it. The reason i am outside is the electric load shedding in greater noida these days.. Technology departs us from natural things, i was surfing internet on my system now i am doing it thru my phone. This is again due to technology. This is a complete oxymoron.. But after seeing the moon n sky i realized we miss a lot of things everyday. Ronan keating sang quite right 'give the heavens above more than just a passing glance..' in the song- I hope you dance.
Signing off
harsh jha.

This aint funny business.

Doing job in BPO sector is no funny business. I realized it this morning when i was coming back to my room after night shift. The reason is that this is the most engaging job, timewise. The current scene is this i can go to an interview tomorrow but i wont because today i had to wash my clothes but didnt make it - time shortage. I seriously need to start studying or find a new job in hardcore IT field "or" i will be stucked in this job. So, career is something i need to think about very sincerely. Its time to think of long term. LP - i tried to hold on, but didn't even know. i wasted it all, just to watch you go.

Emotional flakes:)

The things i am talking about are those short moments in which people become friends or more precisely start becoming friends.. It all starts when you come across another person at your workplace or studies, i mean anywhere where you regularly go and that person seems good. In other case if someone helps you and you gotta know more about the one. I am discussing all this because i am departing from the sects of my life.. and i am finding new one's too. We became graduates last months and everyone moving out to land in new places. These emotional flakes fly everywhere in the air and falls between two people. So thats how new people become friends.. I am unable to put my thoughts in words this time. Maybe i am not sure about what i want to put up.
Signing off.
Harsh jha

The affair finally ends.

Last night my friend manu gave me a good news. My 7 sem marks of a subject finally displayed and and i am thru with my extended engineering. Hmmm i can feel relief now. Now my overall percentage will increase by a bit. I am happy and i want everyone around me happy too not because of my result. Too much too ask. I can make it. Will get back later. I need to go college to collect my provisional degree. Want to make earth a happy place.. don know what is making me write like this.. Signing off..
Harsh jha

Few new things.

These days i am on a spree of trying new things on web. I have tried bing.com - the search by microsoft. It is good as a new project with not bad results. Its not right un compare it with google because there's god and then there's google these days. Then there is wolfram-alpha, the computational search thing. I tried it but no clues what is it all about. Need to give more time to understand it. But no one has time to first to learn how to search and then use your product.
The gist is bing is good and wolfram alpha is shit. Thats it my drop point has arrived. I am returning from HCL, training is in night shift. I am enjoying this inverted life now a days.
Bbye. Harsh here.
Signing off.

Part n parcels

Hey there, i am feeling tied down while writing this. I am now working for the HCL bpo, thru with voice n accent training. Today onwards my process training is going to start. Our batch has been dispersed and and i am feeling lonely in this new format. Yes i am a cry baby this time. I have found some really good people while VnC training but they are all now in other batches. I just have one good girl left whom i talk with. Maybe this is the change what life is asking for right now. I need to get over the college mode, the emotional mode, this is job man. Gotta do it anyway. change is calling.
Bye. Harsh jha
signing off.

The price you pay.

Hey there.. I am just done with my engineering last week. After it i seriously realized the meaning of NIN's song that goes something like- everyday is exactly the same.
I tried voice process technical jobs and software job also. Luckily i got selected in HCL tech support and in a firm called magic software. The salary in magic sw is 3 times less than that of hcl bpo and i am still inclined towards it. The simple reason is profile i am getting here is as a software tester. Hell lot of things in the mind. The contract is for only 3 months. What will i gonna do after 3 months. All is well in God's name.
Amen.

Wave form of life 2

The clipboard of my cell was running out. So continuing here.
It was my birthday.. So i made to feel special by my friends.. This speciality bankrupted me. He he..
Well it was a good gettogether. We all enjoyed a lot. Exams are going to end soon.. and job overhead is increasing thats why i am starting this job hunt. This BPO job is not regarded good in engineering fraternity but this recession has left no option for below average guys like me. It seems it will take long here and yes the major happening of this week : my linkedin profile is the first result when my name is typed in google web search.. and i am lot happy over this.
So. Its over and out. Thats it.
Harsh jha here.

Waveform of life

Hello everyone.. I dont know why i salute like this but everytime i write my blog i assume that lot of people will be reading it or something like i am leaving manuscripts for coming generations.. Well . Here i am sitting in the noida office of HCL BPO, waiting for the second round of selection process and getting bored like hell here.
Both papers of my final sem of engg. Went fine. Nxt is on 15th may.
This last one month has gone like a real ride for me, be it economically or academically or any- ically.
There were days when i skipped haircut due to shortage of money. If by any chance my parents got to know this i am a dead head. They send me a lot of money monthly.. Or whenever i need.

Filmi.. Very filmi.

Hi there,
train is going to depart at 7.50 pm and i am in my bus at barahkhamba at 7.35. My friend waiting and calling me just like anything from station.
Now picture this: i left the bus for hiring some private vehicle. Waiting time at red light is 2 mins. Auto rickshaw dropped me NDLS(the railway station) and then i literally ran like P.T usha's disciple. I made it in 2 mins to platform no 8. I ran in the wrong lane shouting to clear the way. Thanks to Indian railways, train was 4 mins late. My friend shouted my name. We caught the train by running with it for 10 seconds.. Hell man. we made it.
And now i am laying at my berth and sharing this experience. I am relieved like a film director after his film has recovered the production value.

Saali khushi.

I am here at my home for celebrating holi.. and things has sucked big time for me. My engineering result has gone all time down ever plus i haven't been selected for the colleges i have applied for MBA.
Ya right i am the chosen one.
With my kind of academic profile i am not even eligible for the jobs at this recession time although I hate this recession term these days, everyone is talkin nothing but this.
I am simply amazed at the progression rather mishappenings of my life. I am trying to have a smile on my face everytime.
My confidence is all time down. This blog has become a confession space for me.
Kahan chali gayi hai saali khushi.
Signing off.
A happy holi to everybody.

Seeing past in present.

Pretty ambiguous title.. Well i am in train [punjab mail] on way to pune. It is 14 of jan 09, 6.30 pm and train is in outskirts of bhopal n in front seat there's a idiotic girl. She is with her mother n brother. I couldn't made it until her mother told me about girl's problem. Feeling sorry for her. Remembering the times i spent in this city with my nanaji n nani.awww.. Feeling so emotional. How i used to goto jyoti auntie's place for half hour and generally spent 1 hr or so. Seeing new toys there and eating parathe made by aunty n me. The battery of this cell is runnin out. Bryan said pretty right.. Those were the best days of my life.